I would have to say that my sisters saved my life without even really having to do anything. They just simply spend everyday reminding me they love me and that brought me back from the dark thoughts and destructive path I was headed down.

It's funny how this is the reflection of the day because it's really been on my mind for the last few days.

I definitely think my parents instilled in me the values of committment and dedication.  And the reason I've been thinking about this is because people have been questioning why I'm so committed.  I play two volleyball leagues for the summer because I love it. I love the sport, I love playing with different teams and I love playing in different places. And now my friend actually asked me why I do it and when I told her that she asked me why wouldn't I just skip a night to hang out with my friends. I told her I only play 3 nights a week which leaves all the other nights for my friends but she didn't get it. She kept questioning and asking me to skip and not understanding until I finally just changed the topic.

It is not in my nature to just skip something I've committed to. I don't miss club meetings. I don't skip class. I feel that once you say you will be there, people depend on you and it's almost a crime to let them down. In my heart I feel when I let someone down and it is the worst feeling of all. I would rather stand with you in the rain than watch you from the warmth.

this is me way too much in the last few years. i guess when i'm down i cry. a lot. or i just stop speaking. but when i finally take the initiative to fight back i hand my life over to my friends. i feel like sometimes when i'm down i'm not strong enough on my own so i let the people who know me best work to help me.

the future has become this real thing.  I'm two years away from being a college graduate and needing a job.

Basically, I'm at the age where I have to face the fact that I'm an adult.

i would have to say today at work (oh so recent!) when i was actually rude to someone on the phone. we were definitely having a communication block because i couldn't understand her accent and she probably couldn't understand mine (even though i don't think i have an accent but apparently people off Long Island think i do...). and i was just short with her. i was stressed and i kept saying "she isn't here! i'll transfer your call!" and then she FINALLY got it and when i hung up the phone i just sat there.

Facebook's bumper sticker application.

I wish it was something noble but honestly I spend hours just looking through all the pages for funny bumper stickers.

Forgive me for being away but my laptop has been quite out of commission. It seems someone out there in our world decided it would be nice to put a computer virus out there that pretty much destroyed my computer. Why do people do this? What benefit is there from creating a computer virus that just costs people time and money to repair? Isn't a computer virus just like releasing a big ball of negative energy into the world? What's the point?